#39; Chinese O'Level 2012

SIGH. All I can say it's over. "What's done cannot be undone", yeah true. There's no such things as getting the papers back and re-writing my answers :( BUT I'm quite happy with myself as I feel I've put in my best for my P1. So I chose to write 公函电邮 and it's about 青少年容易和流氓成为＂朋友＂，每天在组屋楼下闲荡，很迟了也不肯回家。And I should say its good that I didnt choose 私涵电邮 coz I didn't really know what to write about environmental measures LOL. Kay so moving on to 作文, I wrote about 曾经你处理过的一件事，而你必须做出个重要的决定。试写出当时的经过和你的感受。I couldn't write about discussive and 报章报道 coz I cant comprehend the questions :3 So diedie must write the above. And cause time was running out and suddenly a storyline pops out of my head so I just write that down. So I wrote about my important choice for my Sec 3 Subject Combi. I wrote all those 好词好句 that I can remember in and hope I don't use them wrongly or 句子不通顺 OMGG :3

Had a break for bout 25 mins and here comes P2. Was abit distracted because I know where are my weakness. But to my surprise, the passages are quite easy to comprehend :) Only some tricky questions in the Compre MCQ part. So I had about 1Hr to do my compre and damnit. Still not enough time! :( I left a 2m question blank ( after asking Anne, the answer is so easy-peasy) and a 5m question imcompleted. D: This is the only part that I cant forgive myself on. I can't forgive myself for not completing the paper on time, worst still, most of them said they manage to finish it, somehow or another. Must have spent too much time on Passage A :( So technically, I've already lost 7-10m of MY LIFE. But looking on the bright side, I still have LC and Oral to pull me up. Mustmustmust practise alr. Even though nobody practises them LOL :3 Whatever it is, no point harping on it. FML. To me, I always know I will always made a mistake in every exams. UGH. Can't I just be a perfectionist for once. /Sucker/

After the paper had some chills w Anne @ JCube though. Its my first trip there heehee. Ate and had a jealous time admiring people at the Rink. Aww, wish I could learn to skate in there one day! :) After that bought some sticky and loiter around. Wanted to get myself a new phone cover but the choices are just, ew. Went home and stoned. I think I just disappointed everyone.

First ever sticky in da house ^^

On a side note, I'm finally changing my specs! :D #happygirl96

#38; Angst

It’s just another 2 more days and I’m going to take my O Level Chinese paper.  Really didn’t feel so nervous before D: I was doing my practices earlier on and questions came flooding into my mind. I’m starting to get really worried. Like what people say, “there’ll always be people that’s stronger than you” And I worry what if I’m in a state of anxiety and everything just went blank…. What if all the hard work I’ve been trying to put into went down the drain. What if the passages turn out to be hard and I’m so panic-stricken that I wont be able to even do them? I can get really carried away and not concentrating when paranoid kicks in. What if the questions that’s coming out for P1 is going to be so hard to write. Or I cant remember all those good words and phrases that I’ve memorized earlier on. Or I can’t remember what I’ve learnt. OMGGGG. You see, a pile of worries that I myself can’t even relax and face them. So affected and I can’t even concentrate on what I’m doing. The more I do, the more worried I am. Whenever a hard passage comes out, the options to choose for my answers always give me a headache. And as a result, it daunts me to continue further. Because I just lose confidence. Why am I so negative in thinking. Whyyyyy D: Do I still have enough confidence to take the paper in 2 days time?
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Sidetrack;

People say "良药苦口, 对你有好处" This makes me feel guilty of what I’ve done. Why am I so negative in thinking (again) and just can’t understand what my friends are trying to imply. Why am I so stupid.  Indeed, 人生不卖回程票! Just hope things will get better. I just want to make things clear. :/ Can you please don't ignore me? Learnt this while reading my chinese book :')
"拥有亲人朋友的关爱是最大的幸福，珍惜你与他们在一起的每一寸光阴。每一个人都会给你人生添上光辉的一笔，不要因为一时的糊涂而伤害所爱你的人。这样人生才不会留下任何遗憾。"
SIGHH, tsk. It just makes me so guilty.......